And Lastly I War With Myself The Most...

My counselor told me last night that my "battles" are not my desires vs. Gordon's feelings, or his desires, or his courses of action. She told me that I have two warring factions inside of me: The natural inclination toward being open, and loving openly and the part of me that is motivated by the need to self-protect, and to avoid shame/humiliation at all costs. The latter has inhibited the former, in many cases.

This just in...

He wrote me back saying he thought he had replied, and did say that he can't go because of no time and no money, but was sorry that he'd not said something before. Pretty simple.