Fumbling Towards Ecstasy

I am chagrined to realize that the path to freedom--to having the love I want--involves confronting my issues with my father. So, I am reentering the arena of counseling and analysis. I anticipate that it will be very hard for me, and will involve all of the things I hate most: just sitting with myself and feeling the nasty feelings I have in order to feel my way through to the end. I have to follow the trail of the feelings to sources I don't want to confront, and then confront them as if my life depended on it, because it does.